It’s been a while that I took a decision to not deciding to make a decision. I am a person of vehemence. I am full of energy, also I am very far from obscurity. I always took my decisions on a non-mortifying attitude as I love to be praised as everyone else. I don’t want to be everybody’s hero but I want to be someone’s idol, someone’s love, someone’s belief, and a trustable human being. I decide on the basis that if I was at the opposite position of mine, what I would have done if my revolting person is the person on decision making. I’ll not fight with the person of negative thoughts than me as maybe I am wrong but I don’t want to conspire also about any decision as I am the one with choices. As it is said that your past reflects the person you have been, it tells me my faults, my deep mistakes of deciding to be, or to be not. I am not a coward on the battlefield but I am a warrior among the winning troops. But the problem with me is the risk factor, I am always afraid of taking risks. People say that it’s the greatest risk if you avoid taking a risk but I am the one who doesn’t want to get involved in the shitty factor of risk. Every successful one has that special soul in their life with whom they can share, talk and rely on but as someone told me today that I don’t have that one because I don’t deserve that special one. I usually give up on everyone and everything in the prime time. Either I am too good so someone with a golden heart must be waiting or I will not get one because of my decisions or in the very narrow case I will not be successful. I don’t trust you because I know you will get a better person than me in your life and you’ll surely be obfuscated about the choice of revealing the shared secrets. I don’t want to spit out my existence in front of you as I am afraid of failure. Amid these all confusions people around me want me to be smiling and want me to make those decisions that are so much soliciting that I become restless and clearly hunted by the dragon. My confidence in speech and social awareness has always been my power and my weakness as people always think that I have a complete life as of eagle ruling in the sky. I am a sparrow with a bone in my neck which stops me from flying or I don’t have the strength to fly withholding the bone. But this bone is not very huge but I have some losers in my life which demotivate me, discourages me and I get afraid and this bone becomes the only barrier of my flight. But I’ll fly, I’ll fly very high to the limitless sky after breaking the bone.