Do you have a symbiotic relationship with your Venom? Do the Venom inside you spits a lot of poison and creates resistance for you?
Venom is inside me. It is not giant and powerful but smart and pessimistic.
There’s some things you say that make me want to die
There’s some times you make me feel like I’m living a lie
They gave me capsules to take for this pain
That you’ve created inside me
It’s not a surprise, your words marked a stain
A stain that’s soaked into my body
Only you can make it fade away
But this is one game you have to play
Venom doesn’t ask me to eat people but he asks me to eat and eat. He ask me to just stay and be there. He always wants to be in the rest. It feels that he is saving the energy for a fight or a war that is far away but yet unknown.
Venom is in me or I am the venom for him. He has the right to play with people’s misery and me being the protector of the feelings. He says we have the right to do anything as nothing means anything. Till the time I am alive, he is with me and after that, he might find some other host to cultivate him and fill out his desires.
Yes yes, desires. A lot. Venom has a bucket filled with desires. For the starters, he needs food always, and then there is the ego that accelerates him and drives me. He creates vital and physical desires for me to fill out his ego and thirst. But it’s not me it’s him who carries this load of expectations and desires.
The light from outside, shines through my window pane
And the sun is out, yet there’s still pouring rain
Take a look, you never know what you might find
Out there is something that you could use
For the good of mankind
Things didn’t work out that way for me
And you’re just too blind to see; The venom inside me
It says we are lethal protectors and we do things for the betterment of mankind, but I ask him if all of this is meaningless then why we need betterment or why we in fact need mankind. Why do we need man to be kind? Why everyman can’t be venom always? Why you are inside me but not showing your true face? Why do you consider yourself to be a disgrace?
I think I made him angry or confused because the sound is reduced. Venom is in deep thought and self-reflection. I can feel the tension. He has a lot to say but he has started thinking because he can play. He is back with increased bass.
Venom says if there is no meaning and I am meaningless, so why can’t you leave me. Leave the venom inside yourself and run into the woods. Leave all the expectations and desires, leave the love and ego. I am not a symbiote but a part of you. When you die, I will not change the host but die with you. I eat because you like to eat, I have desires because you have desires, I have ego because you have ego. I am a version of you that you don’t want to see and acknowledge. I am that tattoo on your arm whose meaning you explain to everyone but you yourself don’t fully believe in it. But I am saying all this because I want you to think. I want to control. I don’t want you to be a pure soul. Ha ha ha. I just got you there. I am Venom and I want chocolate.
Do the words by the venom made sense or it is again a game he played with me and forced me to do something? Is he me or came from outside? Did I create him or the society? Do I really need to fight him or leave him? Oh, I have a lot of questions but who to ask, and if I get any answers too, Venom will make me deaf to hear or understand any of those because he controls my vital and he controls me.
It’s killing me, it’s haunting me
There is a venom inside me
It’s tearing me down, it’s soaking me up
There is a venom inside me…
And it’s hidden where you can’t see.
The only way I can fight Venom is by accepting him. Let me be his host and him be a part of me, then only he will stop killing me. Let me accept my Venom and let’s change mankind but it is strange that for the betterment of mankind we need Venom or I can say, we don’t need him but we want him and we all have him inside us. Because Venom drives us and Venom is the bar.
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